blueaisling: (Default)
2009-06-25 02:26 pm
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It has been two days

Since my last fast food stop. I must say this is really hard. They just opened a new Burger King less than 3 blocks from my house. I love burger king. Its in my top 3 favorite fast food places, and now I don't have to go clear across town for it any more! (insert whine here)

I can't believe how many times while I was out yesterday I had to tell myself I did not need to run through the closest McD's, Sonic, Burger King, Wendys, KFC, or Taco Bell. It was a lot for any one interested. I was even excited when I saw they were rebuilding the Arbys that got destroyed in the tornato last year.

I am sad sick little girl.

I am off to get the 15 year old boy child that I can't believe has gotten that old or big for cello.
blueaisling: (Default)
2009-06-23 03:32 pm
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My name is blue

and I am a fast food junkie. I sat the other day and realized that I spend over 100 bucks a month on fast food. Just this morning I stopped at McDonalds for breakfast when I could have made the same thing at home and saved the 5 dollars. I will eat out every chance I get. In fact I was just thinking of getting pizza while I was out running errands before scouts. I don't need  that crap. I will never lose my weight if I don't stop eating it. 

So today I start the 30 day I will not eat anything that does not come from my kitchen or the grocery store challenge. I am already feeling weak.  Think good thoughts for me I will need all the help I can get.

I am off to run errands.

Peace out
blueaisling: (Default)
2009-06-01 10:52 pm
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I have been a busy girl

I like being office girl. I like paperwork and getting stuff done. It makes me smile. I had a good weekend at work. We had very few behaviors and I got lots done. I had most of the paperwork done plus my normal stuff. I was exhausted when I got home. Today I have all of the filing done. The girls books that the state are going to look at tomorrow look really good. Tonight I am worked since a the bad staff quit and all the big stuff got done. I got skinned knuckles but all the closet doors are put back up and all the light bulbs have been replaced, and the wood work has been wiped down and is a pretty white color again.

I am a bit of a dork I am afraid. I got my days mixed up so C missed the first day of summer school. I have to take him in extra early tomorrow to get him set up and find out what he needs to do to make up for today. He can't miss anymore time or he won't get his credits. I have felt bad all afternoon.  

I am going to get a new teen tomorrow for the summer. K will be here tomorrow afternoon, and will be here for the summer again. I have to get the rest of his scout camp paid for. The troop treasurer is not happy with me right now it was supposed to be paid in April....oops. 

Ok i am going to bed I have to be up early to be a mom and get the house cleaned for the week.

Night all

blueaisling: (Default)
2009-05-29 09:07 pm
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Friday again

Not much to say today. Just did the usual I have to be at work for 2 days stuff. Cleaned, changed the litter box, fed the cats, packed for work. This morning I walked 4 miles, then showered and started on my day. I have done pretty well writing down everything I eat even if I don't want to. I have to keep telling myself its after 7 you can't eat anything. I don't care that the ice cream in the freezer is calling your name.

I moved the computer from the living room to the room in the back and set it all up. Now all I have to do is clean the back room the rest of the way out.

Ok, I am off to shower again as I am now sweaty and dusty from cleaning and moving the computer and all its stuff.

Have a good weekend all!
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2009-05-28 12:14 pm
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It was a busy day

I am a university student. I have enrolled in my classes for fall. I have my parking pass and my student ID. I have looked at the campus and am very excited. Now I just have to weight the 3 months to start. My classes aren't at bad times. I have two at 9 am and the other two are in the afternoon. That will work pretty well for the work study I am going to be doing. So I will have two jobs and go to school full time. That part scares me a little. I am going to worry about time until I get a feel for everything. So I hope no one wants to see me a lot.

In other news. I walked this morning 5 miles. I have walked on and off since last summer. I stopped doing anything sometime in October. I had lost 25 lbs. I gained 20 back between then and now. I am very proud of myself. I also started a food diary today. I don't weigh and measure, but I do write down likes like how many pieces or helpings I have. I also started on calcium and a multivitamin. 

C is enjoying his short break between school and summer school. He isn't really happy about going to summer school but he understands about getting stuff done so he can get it out of the way. He had cello today and said he did well. We have noticed that he doesn't focus well with anyone else there. It seems that extra people even his mom are a distraction for him.

I am going to have to work tomorrow we have someone out with a broken arm. They didn't set it right at the ER so they had to re-brake it today and cast it. It is also the last day of the staff person that totally annoys me. I am soooo excited. I am bad and karma will come back to haunt me I am sure for being so happy she is leaving. It also doesn't help that i have been actively trying to get her fired for a couple of months. In the last 2 years my girls have regressed so much. Its almost like having to start over again with them. It will be some hard work for the rest of us to get them back to where they were.

Off to bed with my little self. Night all
blueaisling: (Default)
2009-05-27 02:38 pm
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Today I wore a dress

I immediately realized that my ass is huge. There will be a showing of Rocky Horror later tonight on it. I went to my orientation this morning. I was walking into the bookstore and saw my reflection in the mirrored glass. I truly almost started to cry right there. I have known that I was getting big. I am not blind I do see myself in the shower ( much to my dismay). I just didn't realize that I was that bad however.

I have been trying to come up with things I can do. Dieting doesn't work. This is going to have to be a change that comes not just for my eating and exercise habits. It is going to have to be a whole way of living changing. When I got home I did something I haven't done in a while. I stood on the scale in the bathroom. (I did cry then).

Crying over spilled milk isn't going to fix it either. I am going to have to start with of course a change in eating habits, and exercise. I am going to have to stop lying to myself about my food intake. I am very good at justifying when I eat and why I eat. I also know that I can't deny myself food that I want. I have read enough to know that that is a good reason most diets don't work. I stopped at the library and checked out some books on how to lose weight without "dieting".  The one that I started with had some good ideas. No carb or starchy foods after 6 or 7 in the evening, and slowing ween myself off the fried and fatty foods I adore. 

I once made a list of things I wanted to change about myself. I worked on the list over several years. I have conquered some of those things and I am still working on quite a few. I think I may make another list to start on as well. I have determined that this will be a never ending war. I will just have to take it one battle at a time.

Thanks for the vent. I am sure that I will bore one and all with this topic well...probably forever. Some things don't go away.

I am off to rearrange stuff. I hate not having as much room as I would like.
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2009-05-26 10:11 am
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Ok so

The holiday weekend has passed us. It was not of the bad. I did work but only with 4 girls instead of the 6. So I was a little happier. Yesterday, my mom went to work instead of me. I truly just couldn't do it as I had just worked 48 hours straight. I instead went to see Wolverine with the gf and out to dinner. It was good. I then ran some errands for mom since she worked for me. I try and be a good kid.

I go tomorrow to enroll for my classes this fall. I am excited and nervous. One chapter has ended and a new one is begining. I have always hated change. It is my big thing. Why mess with the status quo if it works? Seriously I don't leave the city I live in if I can help it. I am not far from some great stuff. But if I hear something is in the next town over (which is truly about less than 10 miles away) I think that is to far why bother. Now I am go to school not far from home only about 30 min way. No big deal but out of my comfort zone. I am such a pansy.

In other news the girl child's mom is going home today. I will miss her a lot. She is the sister I have never had. It has been great having her here. But she and her hubby are thinking of making the 2000 mile move and coming here! Not only great so her daughters have their mom and brother close. They miss them both, but I get her too. That makes me smile.

Ok, I think I am going to go and nap. I got up way early this morning to take C to school. Its his last day in middle school. He starts summer school as a freshmen next Tuesday. I am excited and sad. My baby isn't so much of a baby anymore. He will be 15 in 3 weeks! It really doesn't seem that log ago when I brought him home. Ok all mommy teary now. I am truly sleepy...lol. 

Have a great day all!
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2009-05-22 02:17 pm
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It is friday again

The last week has been a busy one. It was full of graduations. Roo graduated from pre preschool to preschool, I graduated with my associates, middle girl child graduated high school, and the codi monster graduated from a different high school. It was almost a graduation every other day last week. It was fun and exciting.

Now we are back to life as we know it. I have spent the last week puting my house back in order. The end of every semester is like this. My house is a mess. Now my house is clean and doesn't smell dog any more yay! I love not smelling like dog. I got my upstairs all cleaned up. As much as I can. As soon as bsp (brother shaped person) gets the back house finished I will gain the rest of my space, but for now I have everything settled in its temporary spot and I am not cramped. Now I need to start making a list of things I want to change like wall colors and stuff like that.

Ok, gotta go and get C from school and get him set to leave by 4. Everyone is in such a hurry to get out of here! We never leave this early when I am going. I must say I am a bit jealous.

Later all
 

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2009-05-21 07:39 pm
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My first post here!

I am kinda excited. I love new things (in moderation) and this is a new thing. I have gone through the search thingy and randomly added people to my circle. So if I added you and you have no idea who this random person is....now ya know.

I am kinda starting over. I have spent the last few years working on the inside of me (not that the outside couldn't use some work too) and I have some new goals for myself for the next few months. I don't do New Years resolutions its to easy to blow them off. I set short term goals and renew them or get rid of them based on how well they are working for me, or doing what I think I want done. I have come along way in my humble opinion.

So I am starting second leg of my education in the fall. I am going to school to get a bacholers degree in social work. I work with adults with develop mental delays and disablities. I usually work only weekends so I can spend time with the love of my life...my son. He is almost 15 now and getting bigger and more opinionated by the day. It has been a joy to watch him grow. It has also been the biggest struggle I have ever encontered. I think I am a much better person for it, and can not thank him enough for coming into my life.

With all that other stuff out of the way.....I am just a girl who likes to babble about my life and its cast of charactors. We have mom, dad, C, bsp (brother shaped person),   slb (sister in law to be),  middle girl, older girl, roo, ex hubby,  nsl (new wife in law),  and dreamy girl. I know its a lot but some get talked about more than others and score cards can be provided to keep track if one is requested. We also must not forget the zoo. I have a lot of animals. My mom is single handedly trying to get every stray cat in the nieghborhood fixed. Which is an awesome thing....but if she doesn't have the money to do it right then she will catch them and put them in my basement until she does. She will then feed them all. I have about 13 strays that eat on my front portch. I have 8 in the house. I also have 6 dogs 2 inside and 4 outside, and a white rabbit.

That is about it from here. I don't update really regularly but it is my goal to journal at least once a week. So you lucky people (if there are any) will get to read about my wild ride.